This past week I was visiting Utah where I grew up and went to college. I attended my high school and family reunion and was congratulated repeatingly on my upcoming book release.
I had one conversation that stayed with me and it went something like this.
Did you always know you wanted to write a book, was it back when you were in high school? I had to think a bit because my tendency was to say “I’m not a writer and no most definitely I never planned to write a book”. But just as it is so easy for me to come up with short business type “non-thinking” responses, I seem to be breathing more these days and seem to be quite a bit more reflective.
My answer was in general, I’m not quite sure? As I looked at my year book picture as a writer on the Bulldog Press, and remembered that I was also a staff writer on our high school literary magazine. I never once wanted to be a writer, or english major in college. I did know what I wanted to be and that was successful and I definitively knew at the time that I wanted to be political science major as I had political aspirations.
Although I didn’t want to be a “writer” in high school I certainly I knew I wanted to shape my own life, this drive led me to strive to go to an excellent college in Massachusetts where I was accepted. I write in my book about being disappointed in myself when I didn’t make Varsity cheerleading during freshman year tryouts as Junior Varsity wasn’t good enough for me. Again all this leading towards the confidence I had even as a young person with a personal drive to succeed.
While I was in Washington state this past summer I met with my very close friend Jeanette who saw me through a pretty horrible time in my life and she reminded me that I told her then that I said I would write a book. I don’t really remember saying this to her, although not a complete surprise, because with struggle for me comes aspirations for change. I do believe that I said this to her, this was about 4 years ago.
So to answer the question of when did I know I wanted to write a book, my answer
is I’m not sure, but as I write this today, I’m glad I wrote this book and this I do know. I knew I valued my voice and I think I always believed I had something special to say.